One Step Report #48
If it is true that the sky is the daily bread of the eyes, I’m feasting each day around 5 pm. The one thing I can say about clouds is that they’re great material for sunsets. I think I’m going to post more often about our gray skies in Utah so that the sun can come out. This week we had three days with some sun! I must say that on this subject I’d be thrilled to be proven wrong.
The first magical days of December have come and gone, providing rich learning experiences for my heart. We’ve begun our evening readings of Christmas stories and have spent time snuggling in the glow of white Christmas lights. I’m trying to savor it all and squash the part of me that lists over and over again the things I haven’t yet done. There is this sense of urgency, not just because the Christmas holiday is coming quickly but also because the year is ending. There are still so many things I wanted to accomplish.
As I said, I’ve had some wonderful learning experiences, but I’m saving them for another post. This week’s report: 90 steps.
1. We celebrated our son’s 10th birthday on Monday. He is a gem and we love him so much.
2. I attended a funeral on Thursday for a good man. My heart aches as I watch his family try to decide how to begin the task of living without him. I walked away from that day thinking to myself, “I have a husband. I should never complain about anything again.” So why am I such a wimp sometimes?
3. Thanksgiving decorations were put away and Christmas items made their appearance. We’re planning to travel during the holidays so the topic of a tree caused some debate. My husband wanted to skip it entirely to make room in the budget for other things and to ensure that we don’t have a dried out tree in our home while we’re gone. I can’t imagine snuggling with the kids reading Christmas stories without a tree in the room. So we compromised. I bought a very cheap, small, artificial tree that will fill in for our traditional fresh tree this year. (My extended family might disown me for this.) None of us are impressed with the tree as it really is a very sorry stand-in for the experience of cutting our own, but it did help that I promised the children that the artificial tree can live in the toy room as their own little tree next year. I loved the enthusiasm of my little ones as they quickly ran for pillows and blankets to camp out under the tree mid-day. Whatever will we do when we don’t have little ones in our home someday?
4. A friend kindly came over and snapped some pictures of our family on Saturday. I needed something for our Christmas cards (which are behind schedule AGAIN this year). Let’s just say that it was an adventure.
5. On Saturday afternoon my husband and I were privileged to attend a sealing ceremony for some friends whose adopted child was sealed to them for eternity. It was precious, and in addition to being there we had a special personal experience with a complete stranger who won us over with her kindness and enthusiasm. Just one more reminder that God really does know who I am.
6. I am really trying to relax and enjoy this holiday season, whatever it brings. I tried to mentally note the times when we simply laughed. It feels so good to laugh. Why don’t I do it more often?
7. Try as I do to help everyone have good experiences, there are more of these moments than I’d like. They make me feel a little sad. Sometimes it’s overwhelming to be responsible for the emotional and physical well-being of so many people.
8. I bought my son a 500 piece puzzle for his birthday. While I’ve decided he would have enjoyed a 300 piece puzzle more, it was fun today to sit down several times and work on it with my oldest children.
9. I tried something new with white Christmas lights in my kitchen this year and I LOVE it. They’re definitely staying up for the entire winter. We’re having way too much fun with them.
I’m grateful to be alive, grateful we have each other, grateful for my Savior. I love this time of year. Life is good, very good.
Have a great week!
I look forward to reading these every week. I known this was a 2010 thing, so I don’t expect it to continue, but it is my way of feeling connected to the sister I love so much and her wonderful family. I love you and can’t wait to see you this Christmas.