Established. {a finished variation of the wishing well quilt}


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Every quilt has a story.

This one is no different.  Perhaps it will interest you, or perhaps because I made it and experienced it, the story is only important for me.  Either way, I’d like to share it.

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Sometimes creative ideas come all in one, but sometimes several unrelated things all converge at the same time, and at the intersection, inspiration is born.  This quilt, named “Established”, is a result of such an intersection, and it builds on the story I shared here of making my Wishing Well quilt .  As you can see, this is a large, single block quilt.  I have always been drawn to barn quilts.  I love the way they look, and wondered, if I were to have one of my own, which block I would choose.  A barn quilt, the prosperity block, 2 Chronicles 20:20, were sort of swimming around in my mind.  Then I read about a contest being held, and to enter you simply had to make a quilt out of American Made Brand solids.  I had never made a quilt entirely of solids, so I decided to try it and see what would happen.

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The funny thing is, I don’t think I’ve ever been interrupted so much while trying to get something done!  It was a crazy time of year, and school was starting, and it was that insane year (August 2014) that ALL EIGHT of my children were going to be in school, from kindergarten to 12th grade.  I would race to my machine to sew, and within minutes someone needed something.  Each time I took a deep breath, reminded myself that quilts can wait and mothering is my #1 priority, and went to meet the need.  The deadline loomed and I thought I’d never make it.  The deadline was extended and I hoped.  I was interrupted.  Again and again.  At last the deadline came and passed and I had only begun to piece my backing.  Oh well.

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The kids got settled in school.  I kept working on it.  I decided to learn some new things, like carefully marking my straight line quilting, and learning how to free motion quilt some feathers.  I made mistakes and told myself it wouldn’t have shown well, anyway.  But I also loved it because it was so strong and bold.  And that beautiful verse of scripture was now so deeply rooted in my associations with this quilt block that I thought of it every time I worked on it.

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Finally it was finished, and it represented many firsts for me.  The backing was my first try at improv piecing, a result of using every last scrap to make it fit.  The quilting was a first.  All solids were a first.  Lots of things happened here that I’d never done before.  I wondered if I would be disappointed that I hadn’t reached my goal, but to my surprise, I wasn’t at all.  When I looked at it, it made me happy because it reminded me that I’d kept things in the proper perspective and stayed rooted in my values and in commitments I’d made about being a mother.  I wanted it to have its own name, but also wanted it to be closely related to my Prosper (wishing well) quilt.  So I called it, “Established.”  And I love it.  It’s the first quilt (other than a few minis) that I’ve hung in our home for display.

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Also, I think this is my favorite picture I’ve ever taken of a quilt.  I feel like the spot and the quilt were made for each other.  I almost wished I could just leave it there, or paint one there, or take this place home with me so I could hang it there always.  It makes me so happy.

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Tonight I took a quick walk with six of the children to a nearby park.  When we arrived, they scattered in several directions and it was a matter of minutes before they had various games and imaginative scenarios in place.  It was nice to let them run, listen to them talk and negotiate and imagine together.  I sat on a bench beneath huge, old trees as the gentle October breeze – not nearly as cool as you would expect – rustled the leaves overhead.

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They’re still green, but I always love the way they sound at this time of year.  It’s as if they get a little louder as they begin to dry out and change colors.  Tonight it was like being enveloped in a gentle rain without the water.  Such a beautiful, soothing sound.

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I feel amazed that another change of season is upon us.  It seems only a few weeks ago I was looking around at the signs of spring, a great wonder in my mind and heart at it all.  And suddenly here we are, crickets chirping, darkness falling before 8 pm, and tonight the sounds of children chattering as they lay in hammocks in the backyard.

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I am so fortunate.  This year I’ve been blessed to be stretched in ways that have shaken me to the core, changed on the inside so radically that I often feel like a stranger to myself as I poke at this and that to discover which parts of me are still the same and which no longer exist.  I’ve learned so much about being vulnerable, about leaning in to heartbreak, staying open and willing to feel, finding reassurance in small and simple things, loving without expectations, hanging onto hope and grappling with despair.  It’s been a year like no other.  Only in the last week or two have I had moments of thinking that I’m still me, that being me isn’t such a bad thing to be, and that I’m going to be OK in the end.  That things will keep changing and I’ll keep growing and in the end it may all be beautiful.

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Life at our house is raw and chaotic and busy and messy.  Even ugly and broken sometimes.  I remind myself daily that when you choose people, things tend to work out.  I realized this week that they are working out.  Not in a neat, tidy, tied with a ribbon on top kind of working out, but an exhausted, we gave it our all, evidence everywhere kind.  I suppose both versions testify of God’s grace and goodness, but the first makes it look easy and maybe the second is honest about how much work it is sometimes just to get through the business of living and meeting obligations and striving to love in meaningful ways.  I feel like everywhere the hidden price tags are so much higher than I expected them to be, but somehow we’re not emotionally bankrupt yet and that alone is evidence of Heavenly Father’s loving care.  So even though I don’t love the desperate, frantic way things run away with me, I can trust it will all be worth it in the end.  And that’s a good feeling.

Evening light & a few thoughts


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The glories of spring are in full swing around here, one day a mere bud and the next a flower.   The timing couldn’t be better with Easter coming on Sunday.  It seems that everything is in a hurry to bear witness!

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Tonight I glanced outside and saw the setting sun illuminate the blossoms on our cherry tree.  It was so white, so radiant, that I stood in awe for a moment.

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The same light seemed to bathe our home in beauty as I walked from room to room.  Simple objects were changed by the glow as they reflected the day’s last, intense rays.

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I’ve been reading Sheri Dew’s new book, Amazed by Grace.  I’m almost done (it’s very short) and have enjoyed it immensely.  It’s been excellent preparation for General Conference and Easter.  I suppose it’s also why the evening light struck me so powerfully tonight, illuminating simple things like cherry blossoms and glass vases in a way that made me realize how often Christ’s grace does that for my simple, meager efforts.

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Other random things:

1.  My office/sewing room is also our guest room.  My to-do list has taken up residence there in the form of small piles I need to do various things with.

2.  Eric and I went on our Friday night date at 3 pm today.  It was the best time to get away with all our kids tend to have going on Friday nights, and also guaranteed that we’d be awake enough for intelligent conversation.

3.  I put my pajamas on tonight before 6 pm.  All I want to do is sleep (and hope I can knock this junk I’m fighting)!

4.  As beautiful as spring is (and it certainly has been!) things are awfully brown.  With so little moisture this winter, parts of our lawn are looking really bad.  It made me unreasonably happy to turn on the sprinklers tonight!

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5.  I have a number of gifts I need/want to sew before the school year ends.  I hope I can start over spring break.

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The week has been a good lesson for me in remembering the difference between essential and necessary things.  It’s Friday night and I find myself falling into the weekend like I fall into bed at the end of a long, hard, good day. Exhausted, relieved, wishing I’d accomplished more, hopeful for tomorrow, grateful it’s time to rest.

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