Category: Projects

I just couldn’t do it.  I couldn’t write about quilting when the world is grappling with much more difficult things due to the pandemic.  Additionally, I donated my laptop to one of my kids to be used for homeschool (we have six students now learning online, plus my husband working online from home, so I’m mostly tech support now and rarely touch a computer myself anymore). So I hope you’ll forgive me for posting this monthly report for my 2020 goal more than a week late.  I guess I’m wrestling with how to carry on and in a new setting and with serious things things weighing on all of us.  In spite of this crisis, I have continued sewing.  So here, at last, is my 20 in 20 March Report.


My 20 in 20 goal is to sew for at least 20 minutes daily in 2020.  Honestly, March was a challenge.  With the heartbreaking news, sweeping changes around the world, and my own pressing fears/worries, my desire to sew fled.  Creativity dried up overnight, leaving in its place a knot of stress in my stomach.

Last month I wrote about the benefits of accessibility, so I’ve forced myself to keep sewing.  It hasn’t really helped my emotional state, though.  Hand sewing or binding is the closest I’ve come to feeling calmed by my usually therapeutic hobby.


As you can see on the right in the photo above, I had one day in March when I didn’t sew a single stitch.  It was Wednesday March 18th, the day we started online schooling from home with our kids, and also the day we had an earthquake here in Utah.  In a way, I’m glad I have a brown block to mark that day.  It was definitely different!  So this makes three days in 2020 (other than Sundays when I don’t sew) that I have missed my goal.  I’ve had one per month thus far.  We will see how April goes!

One thing I’m brainstorming is a way to add an additional marker to a few days in this quilt.  I want to mark QuiltCon, and the day everything got cancelled, and the day of the earthquake.  I’m sure I’ll want to mark the day we all get to emerge from our homes, and other significant days in this terribly unique year.  If you have any ideas for me, please share them!

Finally, I will say that I still love sewing.  I’ve made masks for others and given away fabric for making masks and it feels good to have done that.  I love being able to sew for the sake of doing something “normal” in a world turned upside down.  I will press forward with my goal and see what creative things come from this time of sheltering in.  I’m grateful for my family, for a roof over my head, and food to eat, and the word of God, and prayer.  And beauty. Simple gifts that sustain me.

I’m sewing a lot of bindings on quilts lately.  With six students now learning from home, I’m spending most of my time helping them.  Instead of sewing at my machine I’m working on things I can pick up and set down at a moment’s notice.  So now, after hanging in the closet for five years (yikes!) I’ve finished my Sawtooth quilt.


I don’t remember what pattern I used to make this quilt top.  There’s a great pattern for a sawtooth quilt in Denyse Schmidt’s book, M odern Quilts, Traditional Inspiration .  I quilted this back in December, before quilting my Christmas Color Stack quilt .  It was a good quilt to practice quilting feathers on.  All the feathers in yellow go one direction and the feathers in the floral fabric go the other direction.


I particularly love the quilting in the yellow strips.  It shows up so well, and it feels like a happy color right now.


When I went back to my original post about the quilt top , I was surprised to read it and learn that I also planned to quilt this with feathers back then!  I’d completely forgotten, and it’s funny that I made the same decision years later without realizing it.


I’m also grateful that years ago I began the habit of making a quilt back for every quilt top as soon as I finished the top.  I’d even made the binding for this quilt and all three were hanging together on a hanger.  All I had to do was cut batting, baste it, and quilt away.  It’s easier to quilt an old quilt top when I already have a backing made.


The back is a pink with a strip of the floral down the middle.  This quilt still lacks great contrast when you stand back and look at it (a great lesson I learned in making this, by the way). But it’s pretty and useful and making me smile on a cloudy day!

This quilt top took longer to finish than I anticipated.  I think it was supposed to be that way.  I’m calling it “My Heart, Today” as I was practicing mindfulness in my quilting as I made it.  The whole world has plunged into an experience we won’t soon forget.  I’ve learned in my personal life that there can be a lot to process during and after these transforming experiences.


As I mentioned recently , me and my family lived a life-changing year in 2019.  And it’s funny, because I prayed that 2020 could be a year of recovery for us.  We were battle weary and exhausted, and yet here we are, along with you, in another life-changing experience.  I’m not complaining, because I learned last year that if we let them, times like these can develop a laser-like focus on what matters, and we grow at faster rates.  I expect that is what will happen to all of us in 2020, if we embrace it.  But along that path of growth, there is still the weariness of living in crisis/survival mode for extended lengths of time.


After the holidays I found I had a lot of conflicting feelings that I needed to work through.  I felt anxious, edgy, frustrated, emotional, but also motivated and hopeful.  On a very hard day, I decided to find a way to “sew my way through it.”  I found a few fabrics that represented how I felt.  I pieced a small block, then fussy cut another print.  Slowly I added bits and pieces to the growing blob.


On anxious days I added sharp, pointy blocks and dark fabrics.  I thought about what I could and couldn’t change about those days.  I noticed that once the fabric was on the design wall, feelings recorded, I felt better.  On good days I added florals and birds to represent the hope that stayed perched inside me.  Many days I added something to represent the high and the low of that day.   I used improv piecing, foundation paper piecing, a bit of applique.  There are bits of prints I was sewing with on other projects during that time, and pieces of fabrics to represent people I met and places I went.  Some fabrics and blocks represent different children I was worried about.  Some pieces represent answers to prayer.

As I practiced mindfulness in my quilting, my state of mind improved and I felt peace about the ups and the downs.


Eventually I decided to make a heart out of all these pieces of my heart.  Piecing it together was more tedious than I anticipated.  There are A LOT of partial seams in this quilt top!


I hadn’t yet finished the background when the pandemic began changing my life.  I added a square to represent Italy, because my heart aches for all the suffering around the world, along with some teardrops, and a tree because spring is coming and we have to hope for renewal after all of this.  We have to.


I love this quilt top.  It’s a journal in textiles, a record of the good, bad, hard, and happy in my life during the winter of 2019-20.  It really does represent “my heart, today.”  Having all these pieces together in something beautiful reminds me that I am all of it:  my heartaches and fears and hopes and accomplishments.  All of it matters.  It matters that I feel sad, that I feel hopeful.  It makes me who I am, primes me for growth, and spurs me toward the future.  This has been one of the most therapeutic, healing, and calming sewing experiences I’ve ever had.

How’s your heart, today?  Maybe you should find some bits of fabric to capture it….